I know how you're feeling because I’ve been there myself, in the not-too-distant past. On April 12, 2017, I went into early labor with naturally conceived triplet girls, and I knew in my gut that we would not be taking our girls home. The days, weeks and months following were the darkest days of my life. I sat with all the feelings:
❋ What did I do to cause this to happen?
❋ Am I such a bad person that this would happen to?
❋ What type of mother am I that I couldn't even protect my babies?
❋ How am I ever going to be able to keep on living?
❋ I have failed as woman.
For months I wrestled with these thoughts, until one day exactly 7 months after I said goodbye to my girls, I decided to make a change! I knew that my girls were watching over me and waiting for me to step up and be the strong, brave, compassionate and resilient Mom that they knew I could be.
I realized in that moment that my girls came for a much bigger purpose than I could imagine. They came to show me where I was playing small and how to step boldly into my purpose.
I became determined not to let their short lives be in vain, and I set out to find my Light After Loss.